Just me

I'm not a nut case, I just find poetry sooths the soul. When I feel sad, distraut or any emotion that over whelms me, I feel these words clutter in my head. I play with the words like a puzzle, until it makes sense. Some days I find random sentences that never go any further, other days I find poetry. These poems are a part of me, a moment in time. It's always easier to write about saddness, or depression. Not sure why, it just seems to flood my mind at that those times. But there are many happy poems I've written, yet they are very passionate. Intimate really is better word, not the type of poetry I would share here, at least not right now :)

Never Ok

Days drift bye while I float away...
Leaving behind a life that was never okay.
At first it seemed in time I would just circle back around.
Now I discover that I am no where to be found.
I've cried so many tears thought I never could again.
Yet lost among the waves I already morn my end.
Forgiveness for the life they say I survived,
Yet here I am a shell of the woman who really died.
I don't feel pain as pain.... It'll just go away,
Leaving behind a life that was never okay.

Hey, so I've decieded to paint my daughter's room now...... Ya, do you think I could keep it simple??? Not a chance!! I'm gonna be painting for the next week lol.
Well I painted her room when she was 3 yrs old. I had an african safari with an elephant, girafe, monkey hanging from a tree and tall grass growing from the baseboards. A lot of work, took me 2 weeks picking at it. Plus you have to wait between some sets etc.
Well.... now I'm discovering how easy it is to cover up some of this... ha ha ha it's so not funny!! And of course the new design of the room is not simple by no means. All four walls are different colors, with other colors streaming through, circling peace signs and flowers and not sure what else yet. I work best on the fly, so the rest will fall into place as I go. Oh me oh my.... what I do for my girl! I shouldn't complain that much, everything I do I do for her.

Spring is here!

So the days are getting warmer, it's nice to see spring on it's away. The weather itsn't the only thing that's warming up. My heart seems to be too..... stay tuned :)