Never Ok

Days drift bye while I float away...
Leaving behind a life that was never okay.
At first it seemed in time I would just circle back around.
Now I discover that I am no where to be found.
I've cried so many tears thought I never could again.
Yet lost among the waves I already morn my end.
Forgiveness for the life they say I survived,
Yet here I am a shell of the woman who really died.
I don't feel pain as pain.... It'll just go away,
Leaving behind a life that was never okay.